Happy day after Christmas!

Home
Come kill me now, I wait no more
Take me to Hell to be Death’s whore
Strip my mind of all that I know
Show me what lies below
I made a bet that I cannot pay
The Devil’s bed is where I now lay
I do his bidding and his deeds
He gives me all that I need
I paid my debts with my soul
Hell is the place I now call home
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Untitled
Nothing more this quiet night
I smile at the moon
His secrets are all safe with me
And we will meet again soon
My moon, my friend, my confidant
You have heard my every sigh
We know each other inside out
And the coming demise
My dear moon, my soul companion
The demise last not all time
For as the sun shall set
My moon will start to shine
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Gone
The call it came, I could not believe
Lord, are you sure this is true?
Too many miracles passed, the end of luck
And our Lord, he took you
Why! I cried out to the air
The answers I already know
The calling came for so long now
And finally, you had to go.
The memories are all jumbled now
But yes, they still remain
Love for us, love for life
Our grief is still the same
I cry in grief, in happiness too
Which, I do not know is stronger
Your body empty, your soul now free
In pain no longer
Letting go, I know is hard
Forgive us if grief stays
We loved you so, this you knew
Now we can only pray.
In Heaven now, do you see us?
And the love we still have for you?
For memories they are all we have
and they will have to do
We love you so, we must let go
This is the hardest part
For I know you are with us
Guardian Angel in our hearts
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Nightmare
Something’s not
going on
I close my eyes
it’s all wrong
and I think that I"m dead
Something in
side my mind
it’s all locked
and I can’t find
my rolling head
enter in
to the night
don’t fall asleep
hold on tight
I’m inside
all your dreams
questioning
what they mean
wondering
in my mind
in my thoughts
remembering
battles fought
I slowly fall
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Comfort
I shed a silent tear, it falls to the ground
I run for comfort, but no one is around
falling darkness covers my soul
I feel the pain I never thought I’d know
lightening strikes and covers my face
I try to put confusion in it’s place
The cabinets are locked and the shelves are all full
I try to ignore the undying pull
that’s snapping me back and breaking my neck
I tried to hide, but it wasn’t my best
I tried to run, but I got nowhere
I sat down and screamed because I was scared
Arms of comfort surrounded me
coming from bodies I couldn’t see
Words of comfort calmed me down
I dry my eyes and look around
Greeted by the cold, damp ground
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Prayer to Him
I stand beside your grave to cry
The fresh packed dirt is dry
the tombstone screams the day you left
a scream arises from my chest
Why did you leave? Where did you go?
You’re up high, but I’m here below
Left alone by your Death
God, please let me be next
There’s nothing left here on this land
hold me in you loving hand
let me see him one more time
you’ve committed the gravest crime
you took a loved one and left him no time
for his family to say goodbye
the tears we shed are all for him
the mood we keep is sad and grim
do we ask too much of you?
You help the many, but forget the few
I give up, I’ll go away
we’ll meet again on my day
love can’t die, but people do
I’ll wait up for you
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More Death and stuff

Tomorrow
A form I see is black and gray
This form won’t see another day
The words I hear
Will make sense tomorrow
Today I’ll cay
and shed my sorrow
Comfort me not
For it is impossible
You can’t ease my pain
Or erase my memories
What I see today
Made sense yesterday
What I’ll see tomorrow
I can’t say
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Fallen Angel
A dark and fallen angel is crying
Fallen from the eyes of God
On her knees, praying for the dying
Coffins are the only possible rest
A dark and fallen angel screams
Only she can feel the pain
She foresees all the dreams
But her the nightmares never end
A dark and fallen angel flies
Her faith has brought her home
Now she soothers all the cries
And she falls no longer more
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Reassurance
A miserable life led by a dream
lurks in the shadows
I let out a scream
the silence of death
smothers my voice
the breath from my chest
stops by no choice
the pressure on me
is felt by no one
my eyes are now blind
from crying all night
my comfort has left
please make it alright
you’re miles away
but close in my heart
the pressure is heavy
that keeps up apart
I walk through the days
with you on my mind
say that you love me
and give me a sign
to live for you love
when you are not here
to think of your voice
will calm all my fears
to see you again
is my dreams at night
you say that you love me
please make it alright
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There
I saw her in a corner- bright red hair
She was just sitting. There.
Smiling at me.
She just sat. There
In a rumpled doll dress. One of my old.
She just sat. There.
Bright red hair- smiling at me.
In my old doll dress.
Sitting. There.
I went out by her.
And sat. There.
I sat with her.
There. In that corner.
There. In the back of my mind.
There. I still play with dolls.
There.
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Yet another Friend
Your candle blew out
ending your pain
ours just began
terror it brings
we saw you lying there
all tears and such
asked you to come back
was it too much?
Tears, all for you
did you hear?
You ended your life
and started our fears.
Taken so quickly,
you ended your life
to look for your day
covered by night
one last good bye
there’s nothing left to say
we still love you
well meet again someday
time, it has stopped
ran from your life
and Death paused at your door
with his carriage of night.
Yesterday is gone
tomorrow is no more
I’m no longer trying
to knock at your door
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Yeah, I know, I'm a procrastinator

I STILL haven't gotten all the new/old poems typed up. But, got some more:

Once
I once had a life
But I forgot how good it was
I once mattered to someone
But I forgot how love was
I once had a career
But I forgot what money can do
I once had a friend
But I forgot it was you
I once had to dream
but I forgot how to sleep
I once had to cry
But I forgot how to weep
I cone had a saying
But I forgot how to talk
I once had to travel
But I forgot how to walk
I once had to rest
But I forgot how to lie
I once had death
But I forgot how to die
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Autumn Cries
Storms roll in and children cry
Today is the day we will die
Rain pours down and bodies fall
I can’t try to save them all
With a tear stained face
The dead child fo fallen grace
is buried with her friends
Their beginning was their end
I kneel down to the Lord and pray
for my child to see another day
save her from this hell I’ve lived
Teach her how to forgive
Make her blue eyes shine
Lord, giver her some more time
Storms roll in and Autumn cries
Today is the day she will die
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Hell or Hevan?
A puppet of Death, serve the Unknown
Confusion is my permeant home
Stuck in a maze with unending turns
The pain of life causes burns
Satan laughs and scorches my tears
he alone holds my private fears
Loved ones pray for my return
I see my last hope burn
Flames of hate, I scream again
Will this Hell ever end?
Satan laughs, his eyes glow black
"Forget it girl, there’s no way back"
Satan turns and beckons Death
666 appears on my chest
One last thought, I kneel and pray
For the Lord to take me away
The unknown fades into the light
The only black I see in night
The only face is that of my won
I lay and wonder if I came home
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Abyss
The demarcation of aggravation
the policy of sin and death
the hate that’s felt by one another
no need to try your best
disease that breeds on others,
I huddle in the streets
just trying to recover
from the stomping of your feet
dying slowly day by day,
I wonder where hell lies
I want to find out now
but I have to wait to die
discovering the pain I hide
others see in my face
I take another hit and try
to put confusion in it’s place
darkness falls and covers me
shadows steal my breath
gasping for lungs of air
but none goes in my chest
choking pain captures me
my face is turning red
lack of oxygen in my lungs
soon I will be dead
my eyes no longer focus
a blank look in my stare
heart no longer beating
a chilling in the air
deadening silence follows all
no one sheds a tear
no one comes to comfort me
they’re consumed by all their fears
buried alone, unmarked grave,
my final resting place
no one at my funeral
no one knows my face.
Lying stiffly, turning cold
in my silk lined bed
no one really cares form me
now that I am dead
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