Yeah, I know, I'm a procrastinator

I STILL haven't gotten all the new/old poems typed up. But, got some more:

Once
I once had a life
But I forgot how good it was
I once mattered to someone
But I forgot how love was
I once had a career
But I forgot what money can do
I once had a friend
But I forgot it was you
I once had to dream
but I forgot how to sleep
I once had to cry
But I forgot how to weep
I cone had a saying
But I forgot how to talk
I once had to travel
But I forgot how to walk
I once had to rest
But I forgot how to lie
I once had death
But I forgot how to die
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Autumn Cries
Storms roll in and children cry
Today is the day we will die
Rain pours down and bodies fall
I can’t try to save them all
With a tear stained face
The dead child fo fallen grace
is buried with her friends
Their beginning was their end
I kneel down to the Lord and pray
for my child to see another day
save her from this hell I’ve lived
Teach her how to forgive
Make her blue eyes shine
Lord, giver her some more time
Storms roll in and Autumn cries
Today is the day she will die
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Hell or Hevan?
A puppet of Death, serve the Unknown
Confusion is my permeant home
Stuck in a maze with unending turns
The pain of life causes burns
Satan laughs and scorches my tears
he alone holds my private fears
Loved ones pray for my return
I see my last hope burn
Flames of hate, I scream again
Will this Hell ever end?
Satan laughs, his eyes glow black
"Forget it girl, there’s no way back"
Satan turns and beckons Death
666 appears on my chest
One last thought, I kneel and pray
For the Lord to take me away
The unknown fades into the light
The only black I see in night
The only face is that of my won
I lay and wonder if I came home
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Abyss
The demarcation of aggravation
the policy of sin and death
the hate that’s felt by one another
no need to try your best
disease that breeds on others,
I huddle in the streets
just trying to recover
from the stomping of your feet
dying slowly day by day,
I wonder where hell lies
I want to find out now
but I have to wait to die
discovering the pain I hide
others see in my face
I take another hit and try
to put confusion in it’s place
darkness falls and covers me
shadows steal my breath
gasping for lungs of air
but none goes in my chest
choking pain captures me
my face is turning red
lack of oxygen in my lungs
soon I will be dead
my eyes no longer focus
a blank look in my stare
heart no longer beating
a chilling in the air
deadening silence follows all
no one sheds a tear
no one comes to comfort me
they’re consumed by all their fears
buried alone, unmarked grave,
my final resting place
no one at my funeral
no one knows my face.
Lying stiffly, turning cold
in my silk lined bed
no one really cares form me
now that I am dead
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