And I quit smoking, WHY????!!!!!

This sucks, I'm irritated, hubby's off playing D&D....grrrr....I want a cigarette. Almost 2 weeks....I want one, but then again, I don't. Oh well, here's some more out of the "archives" lol

T.A.S.
Time and time again
enter into the night
laughing at the dawn
exit all the light.
Inside my tortured mind
never see the day
Always scared and running
and I cannot be saved
sealed withing my coffin
and within my mind
reach into the night
intrigued at what I find
asking all my questions
seeking out the lies
easy to find deceit
too hard to hear the cries
east to find the sun
maybe it won't shine
yesterday is perished
running from my crimes
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Certainty
Certainty exceeds
the pale rays of life
that masters existence
and eternal fight
confusion devours
the strongest of mind
that reflects the question
answers can’t find
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Looking
Looking on the past
though it be not long
remember happily and smile
for the past be a song
looking on the past
looking on our friends
we survived the fall
together we still stand
looking on th past
a lesson over time
I will always smile
and keep it as a sign
looking on the past
the thoughts they do allure
to bring us band in time
to look upon the future
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If Ever My Love
If ever my love you enter the dark
turn for me if you cry
let me know your sorrow, dreams
and what you fear to die
If ever my love the night seems to call
turn away, ignore the sound
that will only be your Death of life
and lives to eat you underground
stay nearby for I am here
it seems there’s no more time
If ever my love the night seems to call
tell that you are mind
If ever my love, it seems you can’t resist
turn for help, fear it none
For through the night, a tear does shed
My work here is done.
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Lies
Lies, the life of the mass
hide, and soon it shall pass
Death, the life we will lead
never ending, no choice to believe
Disaster, a choice for no one
happened since time begun
Deceit the life of the many
Pouring from a horn of plenty
Happiness, the life of so few
something I never knew