Happy day after Christmas!

Home
Come kill me now, I wait no more
Take me to Hell to be Death’s whore
Strip my mind of all that I know
Show me what lies below
I made a bet that I cannot pay
The Devil’s bed is where I now lay
I do his bidding and his deeds
He gives me all that I need
I paid my debts with my soul
Hell is the place I now call home
**********
Untitled
Nothing more this quiet night
I smile at the moon
His secrets are all safe with me
And we will meet again soon
My moon, my friend, my confidant
You have heard my every sigh
We know each other inside out
And the coming demise
My dear moon, my soul companion
The demise last not all time
For as the sun shall set
My moon will start to shine
**********
Gone
The call it came, I could not believe
Lord, are you sure this is true?
Too many miracles passed, the end of luck
And our Lord, he took you
Why! I cried out to the air
The answers I already know
The calling came for so long now
And finally, you had to go.
The memories are all jumbled now
But yes, they still remain
Love for us, love for life
Our grief is still the same
I cry in grief, in happiness too
Which, I do not know is stronger
Your body empty, your soul now free
In pain no longer
Letting go, I know is hard
Forgive us if grief stays
We loved you so, this you knew
Now we can only pray.
In Heaven now, do you see us?
And the love we still have for you?
For memories they are all we have
and they will have to do
We love you so, we must let go
This is the hardest part
For I know you are with us
Guardian Angel in our hearts
**********
Nightmare
Something’s not
going on
I close my eyes
it’s all wrong
and I think that I"m dead
Something in
side my mind
it’s all locked
and I can’t find
my rolling head
enter in
to the night
don’t fall asleep
hold on tight
I’m inside
all your dreams
questioning
what they mean
wondering
in my mind
in my thoughts
remembering
battles fought
I slowly fall
**********
Comfort
I shed a silent tear, it falls to the ground
I run for comfort, but no one is around
falling darkness covers my soul
I feel the pain I never thought I’d know
lightening strikes and covers my face
I try to put confusion in it’s place
The cabinets are locked and the shelves are all full
I try to ignore the undying pull
that’s snapping me back and breaking my neck
I tried to hide, but it wasn’t my best
I tried to run, but I got nowhere
I sat down and screamed because I was scared
Arms of comfort surrounded me
coming from bodies I couldn’t see
Words of comfort calmed me down
I dry my eyes and look around
Greeted by the cold, damp ground
**********
Prayer to Him
I stand beside your grave to cry
The fresh packed dirt is dry
the tombstone screams the day you left
a scream arises from my chest
Why did you leave? Where did you go?
You’re up high, but I’m here below
Left alone by your Death
God, please let me be next
There’s nothing left here on this land
hold me in you loving hand
let me see him one more time
you’ve committed the gravest crime
you took a loved one and left him no time
for his family to say goodbye
the tears we shed are all for him
the mood we keep is sad and grim
do we ask too much of you?
You help the many, but forget the few
I give up, I’ll go away
we’ll meet again on my day
love can’t die, but people do
I’ll wait up for you
**********

More Death and stuff

Tomorrow
A form I see is black and gray
This form won’t see another day
The words I hear
Will make sense tomorrow
Today I’ll cay
and shed my sorrow
Comfort me not
For it is impossible
You can’t ease my pain
Or erase my memories
What I see today
Made sense yesterday
What I’ll see tomorrow
I can’t say
**********
Fallen Angel
A dark and fallen angel is crying
Fallen from the eyes of God
On her knees, praying for the dying
Coffins are the only possible rest
A dark and fallen angel screams
Only she can feel the pain
She foresees all the dreams
But her the nightmares never end
A dark and fallen angel flies
Her faith has brought her home
Now she soothers all the cries
And she falls no longer more
**********
Reassurance
A miserable life led by a dream
lurks in the shadows
I let out a scream
the silence of death
smothers my voice
the breath from my chest
stops by no choice
the pressure on me
is felt by no one
my eyes are now blind
from crying all night
my comfort has left
please make it alright
you’re miles away
but close in my heart
the pressure is heavy
that keeps up apart
I walk through the days
with you on my mind
say that you love me
and give me a sign
to live for you love
when you are not here
to think of your voice
will calm all my fears
to see you again
is my dreams at night
you say that you love me
please make it alright
**********
There
I saw her in a corner- bright red hair
She was just sitting. There.
Smiling at me.
She just sat. There
In a rumpled doll dress. One of my old.
She just sat. There.
Bright red hair- smiling at me.
In my old doll dress.
Sitting. There.
I went out by her.
And sat. There.
I sat with her.
There. In that corner.
There. In the back of my mind.
There. I still play with dolls.
There.
**********
Yet another Friend
Your candle blew out
ending your pain
ours just began
terror it brings
we saw you lying there
all tears and such
asked you to come back
was it too much?
Tears, all for you
did you hear?
You ended your life
and started our fears.
Taken so quickly,
you ended your life
to look for your day
covered by night
one last good bye
there’s nothing left to say
we still love you
well meet again someday
time, it has stopped
ran from your life
and Death paused at your door
with his carriage of night.
Yesterday is gone
tomorrow is no more
I’m no longer trying
to knock at your door
**********

Yeah, I know, I'm a procrastinator

I STILL haven't gotten all the new/old poems typed up. But, got some more:

Once
I once had a life
But I forgot how good it was
I once mattered to someone
But I forgot how love was
I once had a career
But I forgot what money can do
I once had a friend
But I forgot it was you
I once had to dream
but I forgot how to sleep
I once had to cry
But I forgot how to weep
I cone had a saying
But I forgot how to talk
I once had to travel
But I forgot how to walk
I once had to rest
But I forgot how to lie
I once had death
But I forgot how to die
**********
Autumn Cries
Storms roll in and children cry
Today is the day we will die
Rain pours down and bodies fall
I can’t try to save them all
With a tear stained face
The dead child fo fallen grace
is buried with her friends
Their beginning was their end
I kneel down to the Lord and pray
for my child to see another day
save her from this hell I’ve lived
Teach her how to forgive
Make her blue eyes shine
Lord, giver her some more time
Storms roll in and Autumn cries
Today is the day she will die
**********

Hell or Hevan?
A puppet of Death, serve the Unknown
Confusion is my permeant home
Stuck in a maze with unending turns
The pain of life causes burns
Satan laughs and scorches my tears
he alone holds my private fears
Loved ones pray for my return
I see my last hope burn
Flames of hate, I scream again
Will this Hell ever end?
Satan laughs, his eyes glow black
"Forget it girl, there’s no way back"
Satan turns and beckons Death
666 appears on my chest
One last thought, I kneel and pray
For the Lord to take me away
The unknown fades into the light
The only black I see in night
The only face is that of my won
I lay and wonder if I came home
**********
Abyss
The demarcation of aggravation
the policy of sin and death
the hate that’s felt by one another
no need to try your best
disease that breeds on others,
I huddle in the streets
just trying to recover
from the stomping of your feet
dying slowly day by day,
I wonder where hell lies
I want to find out now
but I have to wait to die
discovering the pain I hide
others see in my face
I take another hit and try
to put confusion in it’s place
darkness falls and covers me
shadows steal my breath
gasping for lungs of air
but none goes in my chest
choking pain captures me
my face is turning red
lack of oxygen in my lungs
soon I will be dead
my eyes no longer focus
a blank look in my stare
heart no longer beating
a chilling in the air
deadening silence follows all
no one sheds a tear
no one comes to comfort me
they’re consumed by all their fears
buried alone, unmarked grave,
my final resting place
no one at my funeral
no one knows my face.
Lying stiffly, turning cold
in my silk lined bed
no one really cares form me
now that I am dead
**********

It's like Christmas all over again :P

I just found a TON of poems that I thought had long since been lost. *Yay!* I'm so tickled.....yeah, simple things amuse me. Anywho, here ya go:

Confusion is all I know
Help me please, get me out of here
I think I could get out
But the door is locked with fear
I know I’m slowly dying
I try, but I just can’t stop
So I just stay here lying
and I pray for the key
To unlock the binding door
from this world of fantasy
into the place I knew before
The clock is slowly winding down
until it ticks no longer more
I’m locked into this place
of Death and dismay
Reality has no face
I have no place to go
How do I get out of here
when confusion is all I know?
**********
Pain
Help me please, I’m left alone
to escape this hell some call home
No places to go
No people to see
No one is here
They’ve all left me
I need to talk, to scream, to yell
To ease the pain
of living in this hell
just hand me a gun
I’ll makes it all better
No one to care
They’ll just "forget her"
Who will give me the time
No one is around
What’s the use of yelling?
My screams will make no sound
**********
This Hell
As I walk through the Hell this world has become
my lovers dead face in place of the sun
I smile and laugh, though no one can hear
making public my most private of fears
I walk through this Hell, one goal in sight
approaching Death, ready to fight
**********

Anger
If I stand up now and scream
Could anyone hear my pain?
All my comfort ran from fright
And drowned beneath the rain
Hid in shadows, scared to live
The darkness cries "No more"
I see my future dying
Behind the now locked door
I lost the fight, lost the war
There’s no need to try
There’s no point in confrontation
Death has already died
Pain and torture, arms of steel
Hold my temper down
What’s the point of fighting back?
I’m six feet under ground
**********
Silently
I silently cried
Held the tears to myself
I silently died
The pain of my choice
I silently thought
And passed away the years
I silently bought
The love that you gave
I silently read
The words that you wrote
I silently said
I love you
**********

Boo

Eternity
for a fleeting bit of eternity
I believed that you were mine
and once the dust had been cleared
everything would be fine
for only a brief moment
the tears would cease to be
I could finally come to you
and you could come to me
for a fleeting bit of eternity
I allowed my self to dream
for when the dawn finally breaks
all I can do is scream
**********
Battle scars
the years, the time, the lost memories
blurred into one fleeting thought
that’s no longer grasped, no longer seen
and for once, no longer sought
The peace between, the solace found
only a magician’s song
And when their eyes are opened again
The wars will continue on
The pain, the tears, the darkened homes
for now just a memory
But once again, we will face
the bloodied victory
neither side admit thine wrongs
and recruit your naive sons
spread your lies, spread your pain
And hand Death your guns

Come with me

Calling
The night calls to me,
it’s never ending plea
That I can’t ignore
because it calls for me
Hiding in my hollow
excuse I use for life
The night time yells for me
To come enjoy the fight.
I follow all the footsteps
only to be lost
to find the pain once again
with its rising cost
Screaming helps no longer more
It echos in my ears
am I the only one to listen
Because I hold the fear?
Eat away my sorrow
Please, I beg of thee
Still you stand and ignore
all my silent pleas
I surrender, I succumb
the fight is not worth the pain
for you to be free
Is all that I can gain
**********
Come with me
Come with me, be who I am
Or at least, please try
Come along this darkened road
And the star filled sky
Come with me, be who I am
For I no longer know
The silent fights that rage within
are ready for the show
Come with me, be who I am
For I am no longer more
Come with me, and take my place
and stand upon the floor
Come with me, be who I am
Take my sword and sheath
Come with me, become with me
and fight my battles please
**********

Just one for now

Darkness, can you end it?
Can you feel the pain?
Can you feel the heat beat
that’ll never be the same?
Daylight, can you stop it?
Can you turn it back?
Can you stop the light
to cover up the tracks?
Shadows, can you feel their eyes?
Can you feel their stares
Always someone watching
But never someone there
Twilight, is it coming?
Will it end the fight?
If I overcome it
Will it still be right?
**********

I've lost my mind...have you seen it?

Make Me
Make me want you
like you did before
Remind me of the times
that were never unsure
Make me need you
Remind me of the pain
That you chased away
And the happiness you'd bring
Make me feel
Like I am truly there
My heart is so empty
And I am feeling only air
Rescue me from sorrow
And dam the river of tears
that I cry each day I wake
and find you are not here
Make my torment cease
and end my nightmares
If only you'd return to me
but you are never there
Make me pay the price
for betrayal is so steep
I'd turn the page one last time
If my secrets would only keep
**********

And yet ANOTHER story I still haven't finished :P

Teleina's drink
She sat in the back corner of the crowded bar, watching him watch her. They had been locked like this for some time now. A strange power crackled in the space between them.

The vampiress took another sip of her wine, more for show than intoxication. She took stock of the man eyeing her. Easily six feet tall, his long black hair gathered back into a ponytail that showed ofchiseledsled face. Muscles could be seen through the fitted gray shirt he wore. And those eyes...steel blue eyes that seemed to call to her, penetrate through her. Yes, Teleina thought, dinner would be good tonight.

"Miss?"

The waitress sidtracked her from her musings. "The gentleman over there sends this to you, " she said, indicating the man Teleina had been studying.

Teleina accecpted the glass, raising it in his directions with a smile. She knew the routine, he ould come over, ask for her number, or if he was brave, he would "suggest" they go somewhere to be alone. That was her favorite suggestiosn. There was nothing she hated more than a chatty dinner date. She adjusted the low cut top she wore and waited for his next move

She didn't wait long.

"Mind if I join you?" The deep smoothness in his voice almost startled her. She leaned back and gestured to the seat beside her. "By all means."

Through the small talk, she learned that his name was James, and that he had recently moved here from Georgia. Due to his short amount of time in Kentucky, he had yet to make any close friends, and he had no family that would miss him.

Good, she thought, I don't have to hide the leftovers. At the same time, she slid over next to him, a great portion of her legs revealed by the skirt she wore. To make sure he would get an eyeful of the temptation at hand, as she slid over, she ensured the skirt came up far enought to reveal the lacy tops of her thigh high stockings.

"That's such a shame," she said with faked sympathy. "You must be lonely here all by yourself." Alright....so that wablatanttent pick up line, but Teleina liked to use the old classics, and that stillitll worked.

Giving her a look that clearly showed his intent, he pressed his thigh against hers, and said in a low voice, "Somehow, I don't think I'll be all that lonely tonight."

The look in his eyes, and the feel of his muscled thigh against hers raised a carnal desire int her that she had felt in a long time. The pure lust for companionship, for sex, drowned out the hunger for blood...........

Unfinished Business

A couple of stories that I've started over the years....and never bothered to finish. They're still good reading for me from time to time though, lol

Eulogy of a Witch
Hell my witch, myl ovely south witch. They have ripped my love from my heart, they have ripped my heart to ribbons that bleed red in anxiety. My lovely witch, called away to your gods, may you finally find a resting placed where the winds of hope are not blown away by the gale of despair. My the tide waters of the west be kind to you as Mother Earth protects you in her heart. May the fire of the sky be called to destroy the one who destroyed you, and still is, even now. My south witch , your circle is nevermore. It cannot exist without the anchor in the south direction. The memory of my lovely south witch shall remain evermore in my mind, the vision evermore in my eyes, and the soul evermore in my heart. My lovely witch, without a hateful bone in your body, how can an action so gross be upon you head? My lovely witch, you will ever be in my mind, and I will ever act to avenge your death.

Teleina Asaria Setemyr, de Lupine
North Witch upon the death of her South Witch



Lamentations
The thunderstorm outweighed the cry of the lonely mourner. She looked up to the dark sky with hatred filling her eyes. Thin red welts appeared in her hands where the fingers clenched tightly against the soft palm. "Murders, all of you! Murders!" she cried out to the heavens. As if the answer, a flash of lightening appeared, seemingly from nowhere, to rest at the foot of the coffin. Breaking her silent stare with the invisible forces, she returns her gaze to the grave. A long thin cross was scored across the top of the coffin. A mockery completed by the religious lunatics. She knew that inside the shell was dressed in white, its' hands clasped in an unspoken prayer, yet another mockery, meant for degregation long after death. With a a lonely, solitary sigh, she lifed the lid to gaze at the sight, her suspicions confirmed. Kneeling beside the coffin, she prayed one last time to the god of hers ath long since failed her. Then, as the first rays of sun strayed over the horizon, she soul of the dead rose from her prayer and slipped away from her empty shell..........

Something to keep ya'll going

Sorry it's just one poem....lot's of RL things going on. I'll try to get writing more soon


Joys
What will it be at the end of the day
when you no longer require
my thoughts, advice, my hopes and dreams
And you become what you aspire?
Will the tears throughout your life
be enough momentum for you?
Will all the worries that I succored
be enough to see you through?
Did I accomplish the task set forth
to raise a conscious child?
Careful of evils surrounding you
Avoiding the world’s beguiles ?
My job not yet even half done
But the worries will never cease
About the life I breathed into you
And the unreachable peace
My darling sons, I leave this here
I pray you eventually discover
The tears I shed were not for loss
But joys of a mother
**********

When bad things get worse

Puzzles
No simple joy is promised here
to life we are left alone
to discover and to learn
truly there is no home
not even one of creative minds
though they sure do try
and tend to blunder through this world
to think we’ll never die
lessons learned, but ever placed
into dim memories
long forgotten echos of
what once was your sanity
fleeting fears fades so soon
replaced b temporary bliss
nothing but a shallow plea
of what you’ll never miss
**********

Cry for me
Cry for me-
I did for you.
But you never would see
All the anger
All the pain
The rage inside of me.
Cry for me-
But shed no tears
They’re helpless to you now
I will not stop
will not fail
This I can not allow.
Cry for me-
and let me hear
all your pathetic fears
the hidden beast
hidden mask
Cry for me, let me hear.
Cry for me-
It’s my turn now
For you to scream for me
For you to beg
you to bleed
you to crawl on your knees
**********

Dr. Suess was evil

Not really...but after just reading about 30 of his books to my kids.....hehe...you get my drift, right? This is actually the end to my archives of poetry, so I guess I need to start writing some more, lol.

Untitled
Will my tears fall to freedom
And bathe the parched skies?
Freeing my dreams, my fears,
Freeing my will to die?
Will my tears fall upon you
And bathe your downcast face?
Drowning you within my depths
Leaving you no escape?
Will my tears fall silently
And let me quietly fall?
For when you think none is there
Is there one at all?
Will my tears fall for reason
Or just because they will?
Will they make me who I am?
Or am I that just still?
**********

I do promise to get more up here soon. Life is slightly hecitc right now.

Argh! I hate multiple rainy days!

Father can you Hear Me?
Father, can you hear me?
Open your closed eyes
Father do you know my love?
And why I still do cry?
Father, please don’t leave me
this world cannot go long
Father, I will stay with you
until they play our song
Father, yes, the years have passed
and our love is strong still
Father, we still have time
If it is His will
Father, I love you true
this I know you know
Father, I will always be
Your one and only baby girl
**********
Broken
Sighing slightly, I ignore the pain
that eats me from inside
Fed from words of your hate
I feel my love has died.
The tears begin, against my will
I swore I would not cry.
Tracing dusty streaks upon my cheeks.
I know that I did try.
Across the miles, the hatred felt
I sit upon my hands.
For my words do no good
And alone I still stand.
Your angered wrath unleashed at me
confusing my intentions
confused my minds reality
and all the definitions.
So here I am, waiting still
for you to quench your pain
And when it comes to your return
Will we be the same?
**********

Struggles
Rambling of thought
Answers unsought
Leaving me drained
Piercing of eyes
Helping me die
Or am I just insane?
Rancid or sweet
Jerked off my feet
Answering the pain
Mauled by the fight
Ending my plight
Silently in the rain
**********
Truly alone?
I am alone today
no fear in what I say
No acting if it’s wrong or right
Spared you a final word
cut short- by my sword
as I walked into the night
Daemons drawn, consumed by me
echoing your final plea
and I resume the fight
In the shadows, shook by fear
wanted not, but I still hear
darkened tales of your might
Turn around, we’re face to face
disappeared without a trace
vanished from all sight
I cannot run, you’ve proven this
eternity just to miss
the first rays of sunlight
monster made, do you regret
lost control of your pet
should have kept the leash more tight
**********
On it’s head
What is it you do to me
that turns me upside down
I dug my grave, was laid to rest
Resigned to not be found
Centuries spent, my heart gone still
Ceased to beat by choice
When through the darkened haze I found
a pathway to your voice
With starlit eyes, the moon did shine
upon a new found face
Stopped by will, of it’s own accord
my heart began to race
I opened my eyes to see my dream
come true before the dawn
Rose up through the dirt
to leap into your arms
That quiet night, the world on end
completely on it’s head
I lay still, wrapped in your arms
Returning from the dead
**********
Can you?
Can you see what I see,
when I close my eyes?
All the world's insanity
Trapped inside my mind.
Can you feel what I feel?
The pain is too intense
Locked inside my madness
To ready no defense
Can you say what I say?
Calming words to none
And knowing in the end
The beginning will be undone
Can you think my thoughts?
Or are they filled with pain?
Too much for you to handle
Too little for you to gain
Can you walk within my shoes?
Just for one more day?
Give me a relief from life
And a reason I should stay
**********

Long lives

Lonely and alone
I’m lost and torn
I want to hear your voice
I’m tattered and worn
Destroyed by my choice
Forgotten and destroyed
such decay in life
my life is void
I surrender the fight
Lonely and alone
No one sheds a tear
No place to call home
Or to hide my fears
**********

Trapped inside silence
Hold me tight my dreams do come
what tales they hold will be seen
I pray to know and understand
what these dreams do mean
horrors brought, I beg no more
for the pleas do fall
on deaf ears, no one listens
do they hear my call?
My love, I scream, I need you
fall inside my head
My love, he listens for me
But my voices are all dead
It echos onto no one told
I’m trapped inside my silence
my personal Hell, for life to live
but my love is reliant
My love is true and so am I
the words do not transcend
the violence, the pain, the hell I lived
my love, I’ll speak again
**********
Wait
Wait-
I am here
Wait-
clear the tears
wait-
I see the pain
wait-
a reason I came
wait-
my love is for you
wait-
my love is true

The Game
Close my eyes, I wait and see
where this ride will go
joy, sadness, tears, and pain
I fear will never be known
Roller coaster, no amusement here
the park has long been dim
I smile on as I move through
and prepare to ride again
Hold on tight, the ride is new
as it is every time
the ride is new, the body old,
and no one reads the signs
Take your time as you pass through
and notice life’s details
Last ride? Maybe so
the bonus round begins
Did you score high enough?
Or will you play again?
**********

Late night rantings

Silver sentinel
The moon, it weeps with all it’s heart
my friend, it cannot die
Though all the darkness covers it
it sees with twilight eyes
The sadden child shakes with fear
she know no other trust
The moon it wishes to be near
and quell her strongest lust
The poor child looks up
to cry out in her pain
The moon it weeps, can no longer look
It’s efforts were in vain
**********

Simple
The simple things that mean so much
seem to fall away
this darkness comes and covers me
permanently it stays
I push it back and then move on
the efforts all in vain
the darkness strong - my efforts weak
to try to ease the pain
the hope keeps on, encourage me
to keep on with my life
for all the darkness has to fall
and at the end is life
**********

Promises Anew
A slight joy I’ve found
In the mornings rays
For when the moon does sleep
it promises new day
the morning sun, in contrast
to the evening moon
Bathe’s the world in brightness
just to fade so soon
the evening’s moon, not outdone
pushes the sun aside
and takes his time with silver light
and all his stars behind
**********
Untitled 2
A sigh inside escapes from me
lost among the shattered screams
dreams and hope among the land
shattered by a conscious hand
holding on with wishes true
trying to follow this life through
love in streams, fading none
keeps me going, begin to run
the slaves all laugh and masters scorn
"soon the love will be torn"
nay to them, I have one plea
love is true, will they see?
**********
For my son
All the hope I once had
Inside this little lad
Raised among the violent land
Yes, I will hold your hand
Keep your head held up high
Don’t quit until you try
Among the wolves, this little babe
Remember how the game is played
Invent the rules, let no one bend
And hold to your true friends
Never fail, for love is true
Find the path and follow through
Advice I give from my life led
Gave birth to you, Love, I said
Always keeps the rising sun
Never fear, my baby son.
**********

Another edition

Yeah, I ran outta cutsey titles, can ya tell? Anyways, thank you to all who IM me or e-mail me telling me thier feedback. At least I know SOMEONE'S reading this, lol.

Dreaming
Lay awake at night
see him in my dreams
Is it wrong, or is it right
what does this all mean?
Need to find out something
I keep losing ground
I keep trying to scream
and it makes no sound
Get me out of here
There’s no unlocked doors
overcome with fear
just tell me what’s in store
He haunts me in my mind
He’s everything I see
torturing me with every step
escaping from reality
*********
Fields of sand
I walk alone in fields of sand
by me is my faith
I hold hope in my hands
and memories remain
in my life some friends do fall
at the sign of troubled time
I cross the sands and enter the hall
the memories are mine
the alter stands alone in peace
I kneel to it and pray
that the Lord his promises keep
I hold onto my faith
Troubled times, where do I turn?
I ask Him to provide
I feel alone, my eyes do burn
but I look to my side
on one side, He does stand
His hand dries my tears
"All is well, just take my hand
we will rid the fears"
I smile slightly and look around
life is hard, I know
but to my side, I have found
some friends will never go
**********
Are you with me?
The night has come yet once again
through it are you with me?
Will my fears feast alone
or will you see them flee?
Will our love stay as thick
or will our love thin?
Down the road will it be true
or am I alone again?
My love is true, argue not
although I read your eyes
you know I will not fall
and our love will stay alive
**********

The pain’s inside
The pain’s inside - no, don’t despair
I will not pollute you
with the thoughts and dreams I dare
of Death, and this life through
The pain’s inside - -I will not break
and let my heartache spill
I have promised to keep you safe
for now and longer still
The pain’s inside - - you do not know
the torture of this Hell
I will try to keep this pain inside
‘til you no longer tell
**********

Maddness

not really, lol, but I had to think of some kind of title:)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Rejection
the moon up high returns to me
a lover in my head
if he cannot have me
the lover ends up dead
constant moods, ones of rage
hiding in my shameful cries
I wish to be free of here
but my moon won’t let me die
**********
Cry
A cry in the night
and alone I still stand
dropping my weapons,
I gaze at the land
desolate, barren
no hope I can see
when through the darkness
you came to me
A cry on the wind
carried my pain
to your upturned ears
and to me you came
Traveled through darkness
with no map to read
you battled the evils
and chased them from me
A cry for my knight
the joyous kind
escaped from my lips
when you, I did find
No longer alone
the battles not done
Though, with you by my side,
the war, we have won.
**********

Unwarranted
A smile, a word, is all they ask
one without a frown
The little child hopes and prays
that hand will not come down
A hug, a laugh, is it too much to ask?
Fort heir hopes be not high
a day without those words of hate
is bright in their eyes
Never did they ask for harm
they only pray for love
That God up high will hear their prayers
and shield them from above
**********

Masquerade
I am not what I seem to be
even through my eyes
The body still enjoys life
while the soul still waits to die
God has granted a special gift
existence in this plane
while reborn, if rebirthed
Will I ever be the same?
The memories of countless years
and lifetimes ago
never reached or regained
no pieces left to sew
God, protect, I try to spread
the feeling of your love
maybe once, when that is reached
I’ll meet you far above
**********

lol, bored...as usual

Hold on tight
Hold on tight-take you for a ride
hold on tight-take a look inside
in my mind, something I cannot see
all I know, it’s eating at me
hold on tight, hold on tight
wake up, sit up, see the mass decay
wake up, lie down, never see the day
whispers, that soon you will be dead
hold on tight, take you for a ride
hold on tight, take a look inside
in my head, in my mind
all the answers I can’t find
In my heart, in my soul
all the questions I don’t know
take my for a rids, take my for a flight
slowly fading far away
never see the dawning day
hold on tight
asking, praying, for a saving sign
hold on tight
knowing you aren’t mine
**********
Temperament
attitude
my child
my love
life
my child
my heart
soul
my child
my eyes
mind
my child
my sons
night
my child
my life
death
my child
**********
The Thoughts of Death
The thoughts of Death, they do allure
to rid myself of the future
to end this Hell, end this pain
nothing will remain
the thoughts of Death do call
down the darkened hall
willing me along the way
telling me not to stay
the thoughts of Death do haunt my dreams
questioning what I mean
grasping life to follow Death
and laying down for final rest
**********
Don’t
Don’t’ leave me alone
and unheard prayer
constantly followed
but no one is there
Don’t turn around
your chances are slim
of finding your life
but Death who is grim
Don’t think of a life
for the thought of the day
will turn into night
you cannot save
**********
Surrounded
surrounded by the silent stars
that ridicule my pain
hope inside this pathetic life
that they might feel the same
beaten by the tortured souls
that imagine they were free
I see the look in their eyes
they wish that they were me
leader of a lonely plague
that eats at us all
it is all one can do
to watch themselves fall
**********

Everything I want to accomplish before I die

In no particular order, lol. Yeah, some of it's off the wall, but hey, ya gotta take a chance sometimes. Some of them are already accomplished, but I'm gonna post the whole shebang anywho.

~Master's degree in English lit.

~build my castle

~Get married

~have at least 2 boys and one girl

~visit Stonehenge

~visit Ireland, Scotland, England, Australia, Spain, Mexico and Tahiti

~trace my ancestry

~finish and produce my play

~publish a book

~size 10

~be on national T.V.

~have speaking part in a movie

~complete and publish a poetry book

~start a "Save the Spamalope" foundation

~skydive

~create a spamalope

~own a T.V. station

~DJ license

~own a purple Jeep Wranglere with "Bonzai" painted on the side

~have an art studio

~quit smoking

~Know "the group" for the rest of my life

~live to be 117

~live through 2069

~be on the cover of a magazine

~learn Spanish fluently

~learn sign language

~tell my mother off

~"own" a wolf

~adopt a kid

~have an art exhibit

~be told "i love you" by a guy who really means it

~meet BonJovi

~make a video to "If I was your Mother"

~Buy parent's a new home

~Buy my dad a new Harley

~Go to Sturgis

~Buy a Harley

~See Phantom of the Opera and Cats live

~ Stay with one guy for over 8 months

~Meet Anne McCaffrey

~Be given 12 white roses

~play street hockey

~fly

~1 year with no one I know dying

~slap the cast of "Friends" and "Seinfield"

~1 road with the speed limit of "69"

~meet an online friend

~Tell Tom Cruise that he's ugly

~be married at Freeman Lake

~Have Airwalk name a shoe after me

~be the voice of a Disney cartoon character

~run for president

~"save the spamalope" billboard

~own a purple mustang

~Savagate concert

~Smack at least one person from high school who thought that they were better than me

~learn to surf

~own a tiger or monkey

~paint the Statue of Liberty purple before Jen-Jen blows it up

~race motorcycles

~Own an usable "Highlander" sword

~Be part of a national conspiracy

~Have spoons declared a dangerous weapon

~Be called beautiful by someone who means it

~Kill the snuggle bear

~Take the batteries out of the Energizer bunny

~Follow an airplane

~open my own restaurant

a change

The thunder storm outweighed the cry of the lonely mourner. She looked up to the dark sky with hatred filling her eyes. Thin red welts appeared on her hands where the fingers clenched tightly against the palms.

"Murders! All of you, murders!" She cried out to the heavens. As if to answer, a flash of lightening appeared, seemingly from nowhere, to rest at the foot of the coffin. Breaking her silent stare with the invisible forces, she returned her gaze to the grave. A long, thin cross was scored on the topof the wooden box. A mockery completed by the religious lunatics. She knew that inside the body wore all withe, it's hands clasped in prayer, yet another mockery. Meant for degragation, long after death. With a lonely, solitary sigh, she lifted the lid to gaze at the sight, her suspicions confirmed, kneeling beside the coffin she prayed one more time to the god of there that long since failed her. Then as the first rays of sun started to show, with no mournes to attend the funeral, the soul of the newly dead slipped away from her empty shell .

Out of the archives:)

Somewhere
Somewhere deep inside of me
I wonder through the day
where this darkness did arise
and if it will stay
Somewhere deep inside of me
I wonder about love
and if I have truly found
true blessing from above
Somewhere deep inside of me
my pain still slowly burns
and will I ever defeat it?
Before my rest is earned?
Somewhere deep inside of me
I wrestle with the past
knowing someday it will come
to end this long repast
Somewhere deep inside of me
I wonder where I lie
beneath this cool, dark earth
where they put you when you die.
**********

Untitled
certainty exceeds
the pale rays of light
that masters existence
and eternal fight
confusion devours
the strongest of mind
that reflects question
answers cannot find
**********
Alone in the dark
I sit alone in the dark I fear
at the darkest hour of all
the time has come for the world to end
as we begin our fall
Slow descent to the pit of night
that lays inside our minds
battle it not for triumph
but fear of what you will find
the war is lost though not in vain
for all fought brave
the war is lost though all have tried
but no one can be saved
**********

Massive boredom

Untitled
Will my tears fall to freedom
And bathe the parched skies?
Freeing my dreams, my fears,
Freeing my will to die?
Will my tears fall upon you
And bathe your downcast face?
Drowning you within my depths
Leaving you no escape?
Will my tears fall silently
And let me quietly fall?
For when you think none is there
Is there one at all?
Will my tears fall for reason
Or just because they will?
Will they make me who I am?
Or am I that just still?

**********
Pyramid Game
be-
cause I
think I shall
this poem just may
go on forever
due to the fact that I
have a love for completely
and useless run on sentences.
no one here shall dare try to stop this
insane, odd, banter of a mad woman
who is getting quite tired now of counting
all of the syllables here. so she shall
begin counting backwards, attempting
to make a sensible end to
her madness that just may be
contagious, she is not
sure if it is or
not, so you should
try to stay
away
now.

Insert witty saying here:

Hrm....happy father's day. If that applies to anyone who actually reads this...( yeah, like all 3 of my regular readers, lol)
I'm bored....I'm tierd...I want a nap *whaaaaaaa!

Lol.
Oh yeah...I put poetry here, don't I?

Time and Time
Time and time again
over and over
through the endless years
elusive four leaf clover
time and time again
wishing on a star
through the endless nights
when the day was far
time and time again
searching through my heart
through the endless breaths
when we’re worlds apart
**********
So
So my dreams have lied to me
I’m simply all alone
so my thoughts have lied to me
I cannot go on
So my friends betray me
my mind is still black
so my soul betrays me
without turning back
**********
Dark
I sit alone in the dark I fear
at the darkest hour of all
The time has come for the world to end
as we begin our fall
Slow decent to the pit of night
that lays inside our minds
Battle it not for triumph
But for fear of what you will find
the war is lost though not in vain
for all fought brave
the war is lost though all have tried
but no one can be saved
**********
Shadows
Ran from my nightmares
And you will not let me be scared
Lost my belief in life
Play out the fights
Held onto my memories
Just until you made me see
All the things yet to come
Make me laugh at the fun
Each night I dream of you
Silently I sing to you
For my love is great
All this time to the Fates
Gave us a chance to live
And they smiled and forgive
Now the happiness is ours
**********
Silver Moon
Silver moon in empty skies
I pray to you, just let me cry
Sorrow pent and anger crushed
Hate so old, turned to rust
Silver moon, in you phase
Waxing, Waning, turn the days
Each day anew, you bathe it clean
mend the rips and fix the seams
Silver moon, call your stars
for I promise this job is hard
Fix the Earth we beg of you
Silver moon, what do we do?
**********

Random Quotes

Some of my favorite quotes:

Brekke's Song: Don't leave me alone/ a cry in the night/ of anguish heart striking/ of soul killing fright/ live for my living or else I must die/ Don't leave me alone/ a world heard that cry

from DragonFlight, by Anne McCaffrey, her books rock

Will you withdrawl beyond the law/ lie safely in your slumber/ while danger shakes your world awake/ and Death makes up his number

from All The Weyrs of Pern, by Anne McCaffrey

~~Can you tell I like her books? lol~~
Where there is mystery, it is generally supposed that there is evil
from Fragments of a Nove, by George Gordon

There are always misunderstandings
from Bite Me Not, Tanith Lee

How blessed are some people whose lives have no fear, no dreads, to whom sleep is a blessing that comes nightly and brings nothing but sweet dreams

Dracula, by Bram Stoker

And I quit smoking, WHY????!!!!!

This sucks, I'm irritated, hubby's off playing D&D....grrrr....I want a cigarette. Almost 2 weeks....I want one, but then again, I don't. Oh well, here's some more out of the "archives" lol

T.A.S.
Time and time again
enter into the night
laughing at the dawn
exit all the light.
Inside my tortured mind
never see the day
Always scared and running
and I cannot be saved
sealed withing my coffin
and within my mind
reach into the night
intrigued at what I find
asking all my questions
seeking out the lies
easy to find deceit
too hard to hear the cries
east to find the sun
maybe it won't shine
yesterday is perished
running from my crimes
**********
Certainty
Certainty exceeds
the pale rays of life
that masters existence
and eternal fight
confusion devours
the strongest of mind
that reflects the question
answers can’t find
**********
Looking
Looking on the past
though it be not long
remember happily and smile
for the past be a song
looking on the past
looking on our friends
we survived the fall
together we still stand
looking on th past
a lesson over time
I will always smile
and keep it as a sign
looking on the past
the thoughts they do allure
to bring us band in time
to look upon the future
**********
If Ever My Love
If ever my love you enter the dark
turn for me if you cry
let me know your sorrow, dreams
and what you fear to die
If ever my love the night seems to call
turn away, ignore the sound
that will only be your Death of life
and lives to eat you underground
stay nearby for I am here
it seems there’s no more time
If ever my love the night seems to call
tell that you are mind
If ever my love, it seems you can’t resist
turn for help, fear it none
For through the night, a tear does shed
My work here is done.
**********
Lies
Lies, the life of the mass
hide, and soon it shall pass
Death, the life we will lead
never ending, no choice to believe
Disaster, a choice for no one
happened since time begun
Deceit the life of the many
Pouring from a horn of plenty
Happiness, the life of so few
something I never knew

Incredibly Poetic tonight, lol

Rambling of a Dying Woman
turn around slowly
believe in what I say
answer me
or else you must pay
believe in the stories
told at noon
that soon is beat down
by the slowly rising moon
enter the battle
you really have no choice
how can you defy me?
you have no voice.
may I be so bold
as to create another plague?
I have to think
but my mind is so vague.
**********
Scream to the moon
Standing softly by,
I shed a tear I never thought I"d cry
Tomorrow, I will walk one last time
to my future
to the all divine
Masking, hiding, shedding all my fear
the wait can be no longer
the words, I cannot hear
scream to the moon,
he is ignoring me
I must die soon
dive into the night
nothing to halt the flow
Death, all my life of flight
**********
Life and Death at Tea
My master of Death, I implore you
too many years are past
I’ve saw the world decay
until the very last
My slave of life, I laugh
Scoff at your pitiful tears
why should it all survive
why do you still have fears
My Master of Death, my question
why must we prolong pain
To see the masses burning
I’ll never be the same
My slave of life, an answer
the pain is a simple time
that passes with the days
‘Til the end of the line
My Master of Death, why?
The pain is so immense
to see the people suffer
and ready no defense
My slave of life, Bravo,
your question is one of light
to see the Death of day
Brings the birth of night
My Master of Death, curiosity
why is the order so
to be so lost and backwards
without a chance to know
My slave of life, too long now
too many years decay
I settle to the night
so you can bring the day
**********
Hooked on Pain
time it ticking so slowly by
although I fear it, I know it is time to die
I end this thought, a point inside my head
marveling that I am not dead
memories of a half forgotten life
buried inside a blanket of strife
questioning all that I knew
who were my friends, what did I do?
I gave up all that I loved
to slave to my drugs.
**********
Noon Shadow
Believe in the movies
that share the forgotten past
Darkening tears of
what didn't last.
Sit at the window,
stare at the decay
wonder what happened
when there's no one to save
Cry in the evening
Smile in the morning
The sun is still shining
Yet the rain is still pouring.
Confusion of life
driving us insane
escaping a dream
forgetting our names
Sorrow, the life
Happiness is death
Painful it may be
It's time for a rest
**********

a break from the poetry

Ok, for those of you who know me from Dragon Court, behold, the true beginnings of Asaria. Teleina Asaria Setemyr was created my senior year of high school as the beginning of a play I sadly never finished. Of course, being the packrat that I am....I still have the opening monologue

~~~~~
Full Moon Act I, scene I

Spotlight on moon, moves toward, then down tree, Teleina leans against, howl heard, she jumps and howls back. Howls heard again, stage goes black. Dog fight heard, one sharp yelp, lights back on. Teleina has shed jacket, shirt is torn, she carries katana, throws bandanna on ground

Teleina: So tired of killing. So damned tired of killing. So tired of trying to decide who will live, and who will die. SO tired of those wretched years that pass so slow. These years that give way to no life, only to death. Only to a Death who is not choosy. I am so tired of the murder, disease, destruction. (points toward moon with sword) Look at that! It commands my every move. It's full face mocks me into a blood thirst, into a crave, a passion, a hunger for warm blood that I cannot control. It drives me into a pit. A pity for those that rest in the light of the moon, instead of living in it. A pity to those unknowing souls who sleep, when at any moment they c ould become food for the next craving kindred soul. (points at the moon again) Tonight is the night of the moon, the night of the feast, tonight is the night we dominate. I am Teleina, I am the e witch, the vampire, the fears that mortals gave name to so long ago. I have tried to deny my past, tried to survive in a way other than the immortal life. I have denied my clan, my family, myself. I have denied all that I have ever known. And what for? Only to have my life tossed back into my face, condemned by YOU! Condemned by mere mortals who do not know what it is like to live in the shadows, to be tortured by the light. Yes, you are the one who had condemned me, and now, it is my turn. It is my turn to show you the life that I lead because of you. To show you all I hav been put through. (sounds of doors being locked, Teleina smiles) And it seems I have a captive audience. Welcome to my life, my pain, my 600 years of hell. (Walks off stage, everything black save for moon)

Gothic trip :)

Sacrifice
exit my mind,
so tired of the fight,
let this dawning day
turn into my night
save me my soul,
so this body may die
reserve my sight
from the volumes of lies
end here and now
the perish is grave
take this one body
so the souls may be saved.
**********
Song of Heart
Song of heart, be my guide,
I cannot forgive you
though my mind,
I feel, I see, I think, I breathe,
I wonder, cry,
yet am I not free?
To look out and into
the glitter in the eyes
and I realize it's not you
yet my mind still dreams of you
still untrue
I look into the past,
song of heart,
thinking it didn't last
I wonder why there's nothing more
I hold a key to unlock the wrong door
to you, to be, I kneel and pray
locked in my heart,
your song still plays.
**********
The Curtain
I am a wasted life here,
all alone, within my self,
there's no company around,
save for
that curtain of black
that keeps me in this depression
a miserable excuse for
existence
miserable beyond comparison
for no one cares.
I am me
and alone,
all alone,
so alone
save for the curtain,
my only company
**********
My Moon Had Died
My moon, my moon, you bleed tonight.
The stars look sad and shed no light.
Is it heartbreak?
Is it age?
Or is it finally,
your last page?
My moon, my moon,
where did you go?
I asked the stars, but they don't know.
I see your face
in my closed eyes.
The stars found out
my moon had died.
**********
Pride
I unlock the gate and enter the yard
to tremble in my shoes.
beneath the cold, hard ground
lays a man I once knew
Place a rose upon the grave
and calm my trembling hand
the bitter wind bites my face
as I gaze out to the land
a single tear is all it took
I finally break my stride
Death is the only thing
that strips away my pride
**********

3 guesses what this is, lol

Mind
Hello.
This is your mind.
lurking close,
2 steps behind.
Nowhere,
did you think I'd leave?
Forgotten,
you had to believe.
inside you,
the night you gave
control of me
to the drugs you slave.
lost, but soon you found,
a mindless body,
underground.
**********
Lay me Down
As I lay me down to sleep
no more shall I pray
I lay to die and not to rest
and see the dawning day.
As I lay down at your feet
I succumb and I cry.
No more shall we suffer
I pray the Lord to fly.
As I lay down in my bed,
a tear traces my face.
satin, silk, and wooden made
casket lowered to place.
As I lay down for the final time
the sun refuses to shine
my worm ridden bed underground
releasing what was mine
**********
Voices
The voices I hear, they keep calling me
drawing me back inside
To drown in my own misery
waiting for me to die.
The voices I hear, they keep telling me
happiness is naught
that everything that I have loved
in the fight will be lost.
The voices I hear, they keep calling me
I can silence them none
My love for life is too strong
and I face the dawning sun
The voices I hear, they keep telling me
that my hope will do me no good
I tell the voices to be silent
like the ones in my head should
**********

Another healthy dose of my insanity

To my sons
A sigh escapes from me
lost among the shattered screams
dreams and hope among the land
shattered by a conscious hand
holding on with wishes true
trying to follow through
love is strong, folding none
keeps me going, begin to run
the slaves laugh and masters scorn
soon the love will be torn
nay to them, I have one plea
love is true, they won't see
**********
The Sirens
The sirens sing, I hear the sound,
to draw me in and see me drown,
to lay me down upon the stone,
to stop my journey home.
The sirens sing a song of Death,
drawing blood from my chest,
they look at me and sing some more,
laughing at the closing door.
The sirens sing, their song grows dim,
I pray to see my home again,
They sing yet more and close my eyes,
the sirens sing to see me die.
The sirens sing, whispers near,
making others shake with fear,
they shudder on their wayward path
never daring to look back.
The sirens sing their deadly song
powerful will last not long
The sirens sing, a mark of Death.
The sirens sing, who is next?
**********
The Sirens II
The sirens aisle I come again
against the worlds advice.
I come again to vanquish dreams
of fear throughout the night.
The sirens aisle, I listen clear
to the words they say
Promises of heros fame
for your lasting days.
The sirens aisle, I hear the lies
covered by sweet sound
to lure in for the kill
and watch the man drown
**********

And it begins.......

Well, seeing as how my computer skills are nearly nil, I've finally decided just to blog it, lol.

SO....welcome to the world that I write. Here, I welcome any feed back on my poetry or writings. As soon as I figure out how to do it, I may just add some pics of my paintings up here. Until then, here's some poetry to get you started......

Mr. Man in the Moon,
I see you in the sky
Who are you?
Mr Man in the Moon
Why do you live there, on the moon?
Why don't you live on Earth?
I think that, sometimes, you come down
visit people,
Do you?
Come visit me
I like to talk
I know that you hear me
you help me solve my problems
once, when I was watching you,
you winked at me
as if it were our little secret
But I know
you tell the stars everything
Mr. Mann in the Moon, you live there
tell me
Is the moon really made of green cheese?
*********
Flight
I. An Awakening
Into the night it bleeds,
an ever awakening scent of Death
brought upon by
tears, sorrows, nightmares
It feeds off the mind
lurking, waiting hoping
for someone to trip on life
to fall into the pit of night
to drown in the darkness
hatred, vengeance, blood
the only mind it knows
it patiently waits
knows no resistance
only the smell of fear
which it devours
a tremble is its joy
a shudder, its pleasure
to witness Death, pleasure
only the morbid thoughts
run through a cold granite head
to rest in the pit
where its heart should be


1
II. A Promise
Falling, captured
caught in the web of lies
the only truth it knows
the deceit eats me
the anger consumes me
the mirror breaks
falling shards of glass
reflecting the hell around me
he hides in the shadow to look out to the world
the darkness
in them he hides
it waits, watches
the sadness delights it
the pain makes him laugh
the hurt is its friend
leave no happiness behind
only one mission
to destroy
leave no trail
only the scent of blood
the empty shell
of a once beating heart
that is suddenly still

III. An Addiction
I see you
tripping, scared, falling
don't worry
I am right behind you
to catch you
keep you always
they said you wouldn't fall
I wanted you
to keep you always
the warmth flows through you
spreading the shadows
you invaded my home
now you are mine
I feast on fear
that radiates throughout the black
I will never be full
never be done
I am your pain
slowly, I eat, I feed
I thirst for more
What's this?
in my hand, it looks like
a donation to my collection
of many
useless hearts
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IV. Vengeance
Slowly, eating away
devouring my mind and soul
I can't get the vision out of my head
I keep seeing her
devoured, except for a lock of hair
That I escaped with
I plan for revenge
for the day I can
devour, rape, rip him to shreds
like he did to her
to my sister
so cold, so cruel
I calculate its demise
in the back of my mind
I hide it
and mask it with a false face of fear
that I know it can
see right through
but I wait
and I plan
and I know
I will be in control
and his heart will be mine


V. Again
Slowly, I approach the night
to where the shadows lid
reach out my hand
and grasp the cold, dark
Can this be life?
I hold the hand and wait
for the moment to plunge my knife
into this desperate heart
that's taken so many
now I will take his
I wait and strike
but he is too quick
for someone so cold and painless
it knows fear
it struck into my heart
into the very center
chilling, quickening
I find my hart lying
at my feet


VI. On The Other Side
On the other side
I watch
the outside world
and wonder how they survive
all alone
I sit in my shadows
and stare blankly at the wall
that speaks to me
You, over there
don't walk away
one day you will fall too
you will feel
dark
I smother in it
please, hand over willingly
your most prized possession
I want your heart

VII. The End
Coming to the tunnel
only darkness no light
constant beating of my heart
and my head
inside my mind
nothing,
it rattles empty
killing me slowly
I realize I should fight
lost inside my soul
lost inside my mind
so slowly
my heart
finally gives up the fight
it stops
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9/11
September 11, 2001
a nightmare begun
that we can't outrun,
America's heart stood still that day
the tears filled the lakes
the bodies filled graves,
An unseen devil brought our worst fears true
your heart cried for me
my heart cried for you,
America the beautiful, or so the song said
most of us never realized
some want us dead,
will we recover? we always do
they hide with cowardice
and we hold our truths,
God, hold them near
the ones that they took
and please quench our tears,
we now know we are not safe from harm
Please God, I ask,
keep us in your arms
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I realize that "Flight" is incredibly long, and if you made it through the whole thing, congrats.

I think that's enough to start this thingy off, so....cheers!